I'm starting to wonder if D's expressing an interest in girl-on-girl. She's always been a little ambivalent about the idea (see previous posts) but this last couple of weeks.... There was her suggestion a few weeks ago about a tv character sucking her nipples, and this weekend we were driving somewhere - a woman walking on the pavement had a great ass-and-wiggle which I couldn't help notice.
"We're you checking out her ass?" she asked.
"Yeah!" A pause. "Where you?"
"Yeah" she replied.
She's always said it'd have to be a particular 'type' if she ever tried lesbian sex - slightly androgynous and blonde. But the last two women she's remarked on were neither.
I've a good friend who's a lesbian, she got hitched to her partner nearly two years ago. Her partner's very feminine looking and red headed. Last time we were out with them she said, "I'd dyke up with her."
Took me by surprise, and a shame since I think they're not the type to play outside their marriage! (and my friend is a work colleague, would definitely be too close to home!)
Some time last year she said she'd had a dream about Miley Cyrus (of all people!) after that Wrecking Ball video she did. They had sex and (in the dream) she really enjoyed it. "What if I tried it and decided I prefered women?" she asked. I pondered on that for at least a day after.
If she wanted to try it, and say I knew for definite there'd be a 50-50 chance that she might decide she preferred gay sex afterwards would I still want her to try? I arrived at the answer "yes".
My reasoning was: I'd have to assume that she'd be bi and just prefered bedding women. So we'd still have 'us' and she could have a girlfriend too. Obviously I'd have a boyfriend too... or maybe we could find another bi couple like I've previously described. So actually a resounding 'yes' since this'd be exactly what I've wanted all this time!
Though if the scenario meant she was instantly off men... Then it'd be a 50-50 as to whether we were over. That's a harder one, but I couldn't rule it out. Would it be worth the risk?
Monday, 25 July 2016
Wednesday, 20 July 2016
Jessica Biel with a cock
My taste in men is a bit of a contradiction. I'm very bottom, so he has to be top. But then that often means a bit masculine, and I like them a little more.... not feminine as such but definitely leaning that way. I hate body hair (I shave everything from my neck to my knees save for the brazillian strip which I simply adore - and like the same). I don't like "rugged good looks" but prefer something maybe a little androgynous, leaning towards just a little femme. Muscles do nothing for me; athletic is such a turn on.
And so I was watching the remake of Total Recall last night and suddenly realised that my ideal man would be Jessica Biel with no breasts, but a cock between her legs instead. Maybe a few percent less feminine but otherwise we're there.
Don't go thinking that I'm saying she looks masculine - she's definitely feminine! But after the revelation I googled and it seenseems there are some people out there who think she looks "manly". I think she's beautiful as a woman. It's just that I think she'd be a beautiful man too :)
What else about my ideal man.... Despite the looks, he'd not only need to be top but also slightly dominant. I love my female side and being told what to do in bed is a huge turn on for me. He'd grab my hips and position me on my back - legs over his shoulders, ready to enter me... then fuck me softly at first, whispering in my ear about how good I look and how tight I feel while his cock glides in and out of me. Then he'd pull out and reposition me onto my front before effortlessly re-entering me (now we're warmed up) and giving it to me nice and hard, finally coming deep inside me, hearing his final moan of orgasm in my ear as he physically deflates into laying on top of me.
Oops - sorry, didn't mean to turn that into something graphic! Sometimes can't help myself... guess that's the effect that a male JB would have on me ;)
And so I was watching the remake of Total Recall last night and suddenly realised that my ideal man would be Jessica Biel with no breasts, but a cock between her legs instead. Maybe a few percent less feminine but otherwise we're there.
Don't go thinking that I'm saying she looks masculine - she's definitely feminine! But after the revelation I googled and it seenseems there are some people out there who think she looks "manly". I think she's beautiful as a woman. It's just that I think she'd be a beautiful man too :)
What else about my ideal man.... Despite the looks, he'd not only need to be top but also slightly dominant. I love my female side and being told what to do in bed is a huge turn on for me. He'd grab my hips and position me on my back - legs over his shoulders, ready to enter me... then fuck me softly at first, whispering in my ear about how good I look and how tight I feel while his cock glides in and out of me. Then he'd pull out and reposition me onto my front before effortlessly re-entering me (now we're warmed up) and giving it to me nice and hard, finally coming deep inside me, hearing his final moan of orgasm in my ear as he physically deflates into laying on top of me.
Oops - sorry, didn't mean to turn that into something graphic! Sometimes can't help myself... guess that's the effect that a male JB would have on me ;)
Toys part 2
So why did I start talking about toys?
We ordered a few new ones this week (£150 worth!) and had been holding off on trying them until last night.
We threw out a bunch of the less-used and cheap/tacky ones in our collection the night we ordered the new ones; partly because we have a "toy box" which is a lockable breifcase and of limited size (we do have kids after all). Though we also have a "dressing up box" for my girlie clothes, which isn't lockable (the only questionable item would be the wig!)
D has several rabbits, none of which she's ever been completely happy with. "They just don't do it right" - wrong speeds, shape etc. I can understand where she's coming from, not all toys fit everyone! I've owned seveal butt plugs over the years and only my current one fits peferectly - it's a 'medium' size (though the reviews said they found it to be large) and for me it's just right. The first one I ever owned would pop out if I bent over!
So D's rabbits, my perfect butt plug... a vibrating plug which we bought for her a couple of years ago when she agreed to try anal play - but now is mostly mine. I also have an Aneros which has never really done much for me...
We've got these two toys that we bought at the same time - a G and P spot "rocker" (I forget the brand name). Both similar in shape bit subtly different, kind of U shaped with half inside you and half out. Kind of like the WeVibe - did I already mentire that?
Google the Wevibe - we're on version 3 at the moment but previously had the V2. An amazing toy - U shaped, sits half inside her vagina with a vibrator at each end so that one presses on the G while the other's on the clit. Wireless recharge, wireless remote control. You use it while having intercourse - the buzzing works on your cock too. The first time we ever used it we lay perfectly still after I slid inside her and we both came within 90 seconds. Absolutely amazing! D also wears it on the rare occasions that I give her anal, always giving her an orgasm to match mine.
We bought a Feeldoe a couple of years ago. Looked great in theory - the strapless strap on. Unfortunately while I expect it'd be great for lesbians, the part that stays in the vagina comes out too easily, particularly with the friction of anal while pegging rather than vaginal sex. So it was a bit of a disappointment.
Our most recent venture into strap ons (before this week) was a harness-able dildo and a pair of 'harness briefs'. I quite enjoyed it, the dildo is my favourite for when I'm playing solo (the base has a suction cup too). D's tried using it with the Wevibe in place but even then it doesn't really give her much pleasure, and Infact feels a bit uncomfortable.
Besides some cock rings, love eggs, a whip, handcuffs and a few other bits that's pretty much the lot. We've tried and thrown out various dildos, anal beads, etc so the collection is currently what we actually like using.
So this week's purchases... another attempt at a strap on, a new top-end rabbit, a sexy leather-esque basque and a throwaway buy of a glass double-ender that was their deal of the day.
The double ender turned out to be pretty small; definitely no use for two of us. Though I can live in hope that one day I see D using it with a other girl ;)
The basque looked good, especially as I watched D try out the rabbit while wearing it last night!
But that was after we tried the strap on. We'd had our eye on this since a trip to Amsterdam over 2 years ago but hadn't gotten around to buying it. The Fetish Fantasy Elite 8 - 8 inches my side with a few little twists to its length, and a few inches her side angled for the G spot and with a large dimpled rubber area for the clit to rub on. Both ends have their own vibrator (though can't be independently controlled). I'm not normally over the top about vibrating toys in me, and one of the reasons I'd held off buying this was hoping I'd find something with independent vibes - so she could have hers and I wouldn't have to have mine on.
But we bought it in the end - and God, I'm so glad we did!
I started off straddling her as she lay on her back. It felt good right away - silicone toys just feel so much better than rubber, and the shape of this one's shaft was just right. I started moving slowly but she quickly took over and started moving her hips, pushing it into me. The buzzing was just right - not overpowering but feeling good.
We did this for maybe 10 minutes before I asked her to sit up - I wanted to be able to kiss her without if coming out! She did, and I was straddling her lap, arms around her to keep her upright... and I knew right away this positin would make me cum.
I started grinding myself against her, gripping her in a bear-hug as my hips pushed into her lap. Over and over, I began to moan loudly... The tingling inside me which started with the buzz of the vibe began to grow and grow....
And for the first time in the 10 years that we've been together, D gave me an anal orgasm! I've had them with guys and playing solo, but D's never given me one before - and it was awesome.
We slowed then stopped - toy still buzzing inside me - I climbed off and slumped onto the bed next to her. She had a beaming smile: "Did I make you bum-cum?"
Dreamily: "Yeah.... thank you."
This made her giggle. Next we tried out her new rabbit and within a few minutes she came too. As a finale I climbed ontop of her and slid myself inside, knowing that I'd cum within seconds.
Afterwards we talked about it - seems she was getting some good stimulation from the toy until we changed positions, but when she was sat upright it wasn't doing much for her, infact I was grinding away at her lap so hard it was a bit uncomfortable. Though seeing the obvious pleasure it was giving me was enough for her.
Very much looking forward to using it again!
We ordered a few new ones this week (£150 worth!) and had been holding off on trying them until last night.
We threw out a bunch of the less-used and cheap/tacky ones in our collection the night we ordered the new ones; partly because we have a "toy box" which is a lockable breifcase and of limited size (we do have kids after all). Though we also have a "dressing up box" for my girlie clothes, which isn't lockable (the only questionable item would be the wig!)
D has several rabbits, none of which she's ever been completely happy with. "They just don't do it right" - wrong speeds, shape etc. I can understand where she's coming from, not all toys fit everyone! I've owned seveal butt plugs over the years and only my current one fits peferectly - it's a 'medium' size (though the reviews said they found it to be large) and for me it's just right. The first one I ever owned would pop out if I bent over!
So D's rabbits, my perfect butt plug... a vibrating plug which we bought for her a couple of years ago when she agreed to try anal play - but now is mostly mine. I also have an Aneros which has never really done much for me...
We've got these two toys that we bought at the same time - a G and P spot "rocker" (I forget the brand name). Both similar in shape bit subtly different, kind of U shaped with half inside you and half out. Kind of like the WeVibe - did I already mentire that?
Google the Wevibe - we're on version 3 at the moment but previously had the V2. An amazing toy - U shaped, sits half inside her vagina with a vibrator at each end so that one presses on the G while the other's on the clit. Wireless recharge, wireless remote control. You use it while having intercourse - the buzzing works on your cock too. The first time we ever used it we lay perfectly still after I slid inside her and we both came within 90 seconds. Absolutely amazing! D also wears it on the rare occasions that I give her anal, always giving her an orgasm to match mine.
We bought a Feeldoe a couple of years ago. Looked great in theory - the strapless strap on. Unfortunately while I expect it'd be great for lesbians, the part that stays in the vagina comes out too easily, particularly with the friction of anal while pegging rather than vaginal sex. So it was a bit of a disappointment.
Our most recent venture into strap ons (before this week) was a harness-able dildo and a pair of 'harness briefs'. I quite enjoyed it, the dildo is my favourite for when I'm playing solo (the base has a suction cup too). D's tried using it with the Wevibe in place but even then it doesn't really give her much pleasure, and Infact feels a bit uncomfortable.
Besides some cock rings, love eggs, a whip, handcuffs and a few other bits that's pretty much the lot. We've tried and thrown out various dildos, anal beads, etc so the collection is currently what we actually like using.
So this week's purchases... another attempt at a strap on, a new top-end rabbit, a sexy leather-esque basque and a throwaway buy of a glass double-ender that was their deal of the day.
The double ender turned out to be pretty small; definitely no use for two of us. Though I can live in hope that one day I see D using it with a other girl ;)
The basque looked good, especially as I watched D try out the rabbit while wearing it last night!
But that was after we tried the strap on. We'd had our eye on this since a trip to Amsterdam over 2 years ago but hadn't gotten around to buying it. The Fetish Fantasy Elite 8 - 8 inches my side with a few little twists to its length, and a few inches her side angled for the G spot and with a large dimpled rubber area for the clit to rub on. Both ends have their own vibrator (though can't be independently controlled). I'm not normally over the top about vibrating toys in me, and one of the reasons I'd held off buying this was hoping I'd find something with independent vibes - so she could have hers and I wouldn't have to have mine on.
But we bought it in the end - and God, I'm so glad we did!
I started off straddling her as she lay on her back. It felt good right away - silicone toys just feel so much better than rubber, and the shape of this one's shaft was just right. I started moving slowly but she quickly took over and started moving her hips, pushing it into me. The buzzing was just right - not overpowering but feeling good.
We did this for maybe 10 minutes before I asked her to sit up - I wanted to be able to kiss her without if coming out! She did, and I was straddling her lap, arms around her to keep her upright... and I knew right away this positin would make me cum.
I started grinding myself against her, gripping her in a bear-hug as my hips pushed into her lap. Over and over, I began to moan loudly... The tingling inside me which started with the buzz of the vibe began to grow and grow....
And for the first time in the 10 years that we've been together, D gave me an anal orgasm! I've had them with guys and playing solo, but D's never given me one before - and it was awesome.
We slowed then stopped - toy still buzzing inside me - I climbed off and slumped onto the bed next to her. She had a beaming smile: "Did I make you bum-cum?"
Dreamily: "Yeah.... thank you."
This made her giggle. Next we tried out her new rabbit and within a few minutes she came too. As a finale I climbed ontop of her and slid myself inside, knowing that I'd cum within seconds.
Afterwards we talked about it - seems she was getting some good stimulation from the toy until we changed positions, but when she was sat upright it wasn't doing much for her, infact I was grinding away at her lap so hard it was a bit uncomfortable. Though seeing the obvious pleasure it was giving me was enough for her.
Very much looking forward to using it again!
Friday, 15 July 2016
Toys
I've always loved sex toys. Since I was a teen and discovered bum-play, when I made my own from some old pens and epoxy putty (sandwich bag in leui of condom), I knew how much fun you could have with inanimate objects.
The first real one I bought was with my now ex wife - a cheap Ann Summers set of hard plastic vibrator and anal toy. We worked our way through more over the years, nothing was really super special - rabbits for her mostly - until the last one we ever bought: a 12 inch rubber double ender.
She knew all about my bi side and got turned on by the idea. Our toy play was mostly reserved for our "crazy nights", which usually consisted of smoking weed, drinking champagne and snorting coke for the evening. The first few hours were usually civilised conversation, but it didn't take long until one of us would take the first step: she'd undo my trousers without warning and go down on me, or go upstairs and come down dressed in one of her "porn star outfits". Or I'd drop to my knees in front of her on the sofa, get my head under her skirt and start eating her out.
More coke, booze and weed and before long we're on our queen size bed and naked with the top shelf of the wardrobe spread out on the floor. Touching, kissing, mutual oral for a while. I'd use her current rabbit on her a while then some fingering. I knew her pussy inside-out and could make her squirt in 5 minutes flat when she was horny enough. And coke always made us both horny enough.
But eventually the double ender would come out. She'd usually lay on the bed and start fucking herself with it to begin with. It had a fair girth and seemed to work quite well for her. It'd poke out from between her legs like she had a cock of her own and she'd angle it upwards to complete the illusion. "Suck my cock" was the horniest words that I'd ever hear from her - completely in the moment she wanted to watch me go down on "her" and we'd both fantasise that she had a real cock.
Often we'd role play, for hours that she was a guy and she'd seduce me. Hotel porter, office boss, whatever took her fancy. I'd suck that song like a pro while she slowly stroked it in and out of herself.
Sat facing each other, both with knees bent and pelvises aligned we could watch it sliding into each other while we gently moved our hips. The role play would always be over by now, the visuals spoiling any effect other than the reality that we were a man and woman with an object between us. We'd watch it a while, sometimes with a camcorder in hand and usually while one of us rubbed her clit.
Because it was flexible she could lay on her back and point it upward, letting me ride her. I'd pound my ass onto her while we again fantasised that she was a guy, talkingdirty to each other about how good her cock felt, how tight I was... If we needed a substance break she'd often go wash it so we could go back to me blowing her - always with her head propped up so she could watch my technique.
Very rarely I'd have more than the one orgasm at the end of the session but she would have one maybe every half hour depending on what we were doing. She loved me fingering her g-spot so she'd squirt and I loved when she did it in my face! I actually asked her one time to pee on me when I was very drunk - I'm not into waters ports or anything (then or since), but just wanted to know that her cum was actually different and that squirting was real. It most definitely is.
It'd be getting late but still night time before we were both a mixture of tired/wired/drunk and just became completely animalistic. After hours of playing we'd both be so sensitive - I'd give her two or three or four consecutive orgasm's in the space of a few minutes using my fingers, drinking mouthful after mouthful of her cum, sometimes dribbing it over us both so we stank of her sex.
Without fail it always ended the same. Laying in opposite directions on the bed, our legs entwined like two pairs of scissors and the dildo completely out of sight. Her sloppy cunt slip-sliding against my smooth shaven hole felt amazing. We'd lay back and smoke while we gently wriggled against each other a while.
Then we'd take turns - one would prop themselves up on their elbows and move their hips back and forth so the toy would slip part out of us both before sliding back in. The other would lay back and take it, again usually while smoking, then we'd swap. No outright climax while doing this for either of us but it must have felt as good for her as I did for me - this finale sometimes lasted 2-3 hours!
I say "finale", but usually we'd notice the sun coming up and she'd beg me to fuck her. Though the rediculous amount of alcool and substances often meant I couldn't stay hard long enough to get it inside her, so we'd finish laying side by side while I fingered her one last time and she wanked me until I came over her belly.
Shit! I most definitely did not mean for this to become a remoniscing session about my ex. We used to have some pretty amazing sex but those times were almost always when completely off our heads together. And I really don't get into those states any more.
I love sex with D (my wife) but we only ever at the most get "a bit drunk" - which is definitely the better way to be, but does mean less inhibitions are cast away.
Though we do have a much more varied toy collection than I'd had before ;)
I think this post needs to become "Toys part 1" since its suddenly much longer than I planned! More to follow.
The first real one I bought was with my now ex wife - a cheap Ann Summers set of hard plastic vibrator and anal toy. We worked our way through more over the years, nothing was really super special - rabbits for her mostly - until the last one we ever bought: a 12 inch rubber double ender.
She knew all about my bi side and got turned on by the idea. Our toy play was mostly reserved for our "crazy nights", which usually consisted of smoking weed, drinking champagne and snorting coke for the evening. The first few hours were usually civilised conversation, but it didn't take long until one of us would take the first step: she'd undo my trousers without warning and go down on me, or go upstairs and come down dressed in one of her "porn star outfits". Or I'd drop to my knees in front of her on the sofa, get my head under her skirt and start eating her out.
More coke, booze and weed and before long we're on our queen size bed and naked with the top shelf of the wardrobe spread out on the floor. Touching, kissing, mutual oral for a while. I'd use her current rabbit on her a while then some fingering. I knew her pussy inside-out and could make her squirt in 5 minutes flat when she was horny enough. And coke always made us both horny enough.
But eventually the double ender would come out. She'd usually lay on the bed and start fucking herself with it to begin with. It had a fair girth and seemed to work quite well for her. It'd poke out from between her legs like she had a cock of her own and she'd angle it upwards to complete the illusion. "Suck my cock" was the horniest words that I'd ever hear from her - completely in the moment she wanted to watch me go down on "her" and we'd both fantasise that she had a real cock.
Often we'd role play, for hours that she was a guy and she'd seduce me. Hotel porter, office boss, whatever took her fancy. I'd suck that song like a pro while she slowly stroked it in and out of herself.
Sat facing each other, both with knees bent and pelvises aligned we could watch it sliding into each other while we gently moved our hips. The role play would always be over by now, the visuals spoiling any effect other than the reality that we were a man and woman with an object between us. We'd watch it a while, sometimes with a camcorder in hand and usually while one of us rubbed her clit.
Because it was flexible she could lay on her back and point it upward, letting me ride her. I'd pound my ass onto her while we again fantasised that she was a guy, talkingdirty to each other about how good her cock felt, how tight I was... If we needed a substance break she'd often go wash it so we could go back to me blowing her - always with her head propped up so she could watch my technique.
Very rarely I'd have more than the one orgasm at the end of the session but she would have one maybe every half hour depending on what we were doing. She loved me fingering her g-spot so she'd squirt and I loved when she did it in my face! I actually asked her one time to pee on me when I was very drunk - I'm not into waters ports or anything (then or since), but just wanted to know that her cum was actually different and that squirting was real. It most definitely is.
It'd be getting late but still night time before we were both a mixture of tired/wired/drunk and just became completely animalistic. After hours of playing we'd both be so sensitive - I'd give her two or three or four consecutive orgasm's in the space of a few minutes using my fingers, drinking mouthful after mouthful of her cum, sometimes dribbing it over us both so we stank of her sex.
Without fail it always ended the same. Laying in opposite directions on the bed, our legs entwined like two pairs of scissors and the dildo completely out of sight. Her sloppy cunt slip-sliding against my smooth shaven hole felt amazing. We'd lay back and smoke while we gently wriggled against each other a while.
Then we'd take turns - one would prop themselves up on their elbows and move their hips back and forth so the toy would slip part out of us both before sliding back in. The other would lay back and take it, again usually while smoking, then we'd swap. No outright climax while doing this for either of us but it must have felt as good for her as I did for me - this finale sometimes lasted 2-3 hours!
I say "finale", but usually we'd notice the sun coming up and she'd beg me to fuck her. Though the rediculous amount of alcool and substances often meant I couldn't stay hard long enough to get it inside her, so we'd finish laying side by side while I fingered her one last time and she wanked me until I came over her belly.
Shit! I most definitely did not mean for this to become a remoniscing session about my ex. We used to have some pretty amazing sex but those times were almost always when completely off our heads together. And I really don't get into those states any more.
I love sex with D (my wife) but we only ever at the most get "a bit drunk" - which is definitely the better way to be, but does mean less inhibitions are cast away.
Though we do have a much more varied toy collection than I'd had before ;)
I think this post needs to become "Toys part 1" since its suddenly much longer than I planned! More to follow.
Wednesday, 13 July 2016
The dream and crossdressing
I have a favourite dream. I don't often have it but when I do I wake up so incredibly horny.
Stockings, a basque which exposes my pert breasts. Laying on my back, legs akimbo with a guy laid between them whose cock is sliding inside my dripping pussy. There's always that moment where I realise I'm female, but it never occurs to me that I'm dreaming. I've always wanted one of those lucid dreams where you realise it's not real and take control of it, able to do whatever you want, but that doesn't happen.
The dream goes on with us having what's basically pretty standard/pedestrian sex in the missionary position - I'm gripping his ass and pulling him closer as he pushes deep inside me, I feel his crotch grind against my clit... but pedestrian or not, I'm having real sex as a real woman and (although with no basis for comparison to 'the real thing') I can feel it all. My pussy. My boobs. It feels amazing when he cum inside me and I even remember the feeling of him oozing out of me as we lay there kissing afterwards.
As I said, I always wake incredibly horny after the dream. Though as I wake and realise it was only a dream I get a huge pang deep in my stomach when I realise that was all it was. It's a genuine feeling of loss.
Don't get me wrong - I don't want to be a woman. I definitely could never have "the op" and I love my cock dearly. Though I've always known that my bi side is tied up with my love of being feminine. The gay encounters I've had allowed me to be the one "being pulled" and I loved it. Flirting a little while he did all the work, even being bought a drink in a gay club. I love "being the woman" in those situations.
And in bed too: when a guy manoeuvres you into the position he wants, and (obviously) being on the receiving end of his cock...
I know that of all the facets of my sexuality, this is what D likes the least. She wants a manly man; having gay sex doesn't make me less manly but being feminine/submissive does in her eyes. Which I suppose makes perfect sense.
She doesn't get excited if I cross dress either. Yes, I have a small collection of clothes - basques, skirts, underwear and my favourite... stockings! I even have a gorgeous pair of shiney heeled knee boots and a short brunette wig but they don't see much use. I realise that I look clearly like a man in drag when I dress up but I love how the clothes feel when I wear them. Especially the stockings and boots :)
In our toy collection we have a strap on. Well, a harness-able dildo and harness-pants that D can wear. She doesn't really like bum play but has used it on me a few times. Unfortunately her distaste for anal shows on her face when we do it so I've never really gotten off on it.
Alone is a different story.... The rare occasions when I have the house to myself for the night usually go like this:
Beer. Bath. Shave from face to knees. Anal douche followed by a couple of applicators worth of lube. Stockings, knickers, skirt and basque. Boots go on later. An upturned storage crate with some pillows and a towel, dildo firmly suction-cupped to it. Butt-plug for a little while to get warmed up while I cruise the net, smoke some cigarettes and very rarely partake of some substances (don't judge me!).
Before long I'm straddling the box, riding the cock. On the TV either MMF porn or straight MF where she's riding cowgirl and I'm imagining it's me.
More cigs, more beer. Cock gone from throbbing to half-limp due to all the attention my bum's getting. I start fantasising about going online and finding a real cock for the night, but I'd never do it. Cowgirl's working well but it never quite gets me there so the dildo moves to being suctioned to the side of the box, on the narrower end. More lube applied, definitely wearing the wig and boots by now. I kneel with lower legs either side of the box and my ass near the fake cock. The box pushed back against the sofa so it won't move, a stack of beanbags in front of me to rest my arms on as I hunker down onto all fours and guide myself back onto my rubber lover.
It's not perfect; as the lube reaches the base of the dildo it has a tendency to start slip-sliding around on the smooth surface so I have to keep the angle of my rump just right. By now I'm usually quite drunk (and maybe a little high) so it becomes all about the visuals. The remote to hand, the TV shows whatever's taken my fancy - MF, MM or MMF doesn't matter as long as I can see a cock pounding an orifice as I buck against the cock box.
It usually starts off slowly - a tingle deep in my belly. It spreads, giving me warm tingles at the base of my cock, the perenium (?) and my ass itself. Physiologically I know it's the stimulation to my prostate that's doing this but it feels like it's the sensation of the shaft gliding in and out of my hole... I think the prostate somehow makes the nerves down there super sensitive? But in the moment it's definitely the point of penetration that feels so good.
I pound harder backwards against the cock, taking all of it inside me with each stroke. My ass is radiating now, this feeling of pleasure that keeps on building and I don't want it to stop. My breathing gets heavy, I start to moan as I bang as hard as I can onto the cock. I'm never erect at this point - sometimes semi, other times limp - but the head of my own cock is incredibly sensitive, sometimes just a touch can trigger an ejaculation - even when I'm not hard.
I buck as hard as I can and the pleasure just keeps building, until finally my muscles can't carry on and I collapse in a heap. There's no final "climax" as such, it just feels better and better until I physically can't keep going. It can take a little while to get the feeling started, and I know it's because I'm concentrating on keeping the dildo in the right place; I've achieved this same anal orgasm with a guy before and got there quicker.
I often wonder how far the pleasure would go if the penetration continued past the point where I can't make the movements myself - is there an actual climax that I've never hit? It'd need to be with a real guy, a real cock so he could keep pounding me without my tiredness being a factor - though on those occasions that I've gotten there with a guy the crescendo of my orgasm's always triggered his too and we've stopped. I've idly considered buying one of those "fucking machine" toys which would definitely fill that role but they're expensive, hard to conceal and frankly I think D would be completely turned off.
If anyone's reading this blog - have you ever anal orgasmed? Is there a peak that I've never hit?
Stockings, a basque which exposes my pert breasts. Laying on my back, legs akimbo with a guy laid between them whose cock is sliding inside my dripping pussy. There's always that moment where I realise I'm female, but it never occurs to me that I'm dreaming. I've always wanted one of those lucid dreams where you realise it's not real and take control of it, able to do whatever you want, but that doesn't happen.
The dream goes on with us having what's basically pretty standard/pedestrian sex in the missionary position - I'm gripping his ass and pulling him closer as he pushes deep inside me, I feel his crotch grind against my clit... but pedestrian or not, I'm having real sex as a real woman and (although with no basis for comparison to 'the real thing') I can feel it all. My pussy. My boobs. It feels amazing when he cum inside me and I even remember the feeling of him oozing out of me as we lay there kissing afterwards.
As I said, I always wake incredibly horny after the dream. Though as I wake and realise it was only a dream I get a huge pang deep in my stomach when I realise that was all it was. It's a genuine feeling of loss.
Don't get me wrong - I don't want to be a woman. I definitely could never have "the op" and I love my cock dearly. Though I've always known that my bi side is tied up with my love of being feminine. The gay encounters I've had allowed me to be the one "being pulled" and I loved it. Flirting a little while he did all the work, even being bought a drink in a gay club. I love "being the woman" in those situations.
And in bed too: when a guy manoeuvres you into the position he wants, and (obviously) being on the receiving end of his cock...
I know that of all the facets of my sexuality, this is what D likes the least. She wants a manly man; having gay sex doesn't make me less manly but being feminine/submissive does in her eyes. Which I suppose makes perfect sense.
She doesn't get excited if I cross dress either. Yes, I have a small collection of clothes - basques, skirts, underwear and my favourite... stockings! I even have a gorgeous pair of shiney heeled knee boots and a short brunette wig but they don't see much use. I realise that I look clearly like a man in drag when I dress up but I love how the clothes feel when I wear them. Especially the stockings and boots :)
In our toy collection we have a strap on. Well, a harness-able dildo and harness-pants that D can wear. She doesn't really like bum play but has used it on me a few times. Unfortunately her distaste for anal shows on her face when we do it so I've never really gotten off on it.
Alone is a different story.... The rare occasions when I have the house to myself for the night usually go like this:
Beer. Bath. Shave from face to knees. Anal douche followed by a couple of applicators worth of lube. Stockings, knickers, skirt and basque. Boots go on later. An upturned storage crate with some pillows and a towel, dildo firmly suction-cupped to it. Butt-plug for a little while to get warmed up while I cruise the net, smoke some cigarettes and very rarely partake of some substances (don't judge me!).
Before long I'm straddling the box, riding the cock. On the TV either MMF porn or straight MF where she's riding cowgirl and I'm imagining it's me.
More cigs, more beer. Cock gone from throbbing to half-limp due to all the attention my bum's getting. I start fantasising about going online and finding a real cock for the night, but I'd never do it. Cowgirl's working well but it never quite gets me there so the dildo moves to being suctioned to the side of the box, on the narrower end. More lube applied, definitely wearing the wig and boots by now. I kneel with lower legs either side of the box and my ass near the fake cock. The box pushed back against the sofa so it won't move, a stack of beanbags in front of me to rest my arms on as I hunker down onto all fours and guide myself back onto my rubber lover.
It's not perfect; as the lube reaches the base of the dildo it has a tendency to start slip-sliding around on the smooth surface so I have to keep the angle of my rump just right. By now I'm usually quite drunk (and maybe a little high) so it becomes all about the visuals. The remote to hand, the TV shows whatever's taken my fancy - MF, MM or MMF doesn't matter as long as I can see a cock pounding an orifice as I buck against the cock box.
It usually starts off slowly - a tingle deep in my belly. It spreads, giving me warm tingles at the base of my cock, the perenium (?) and my ass itself. Physiologically I know it's the stimulation to my prostate that's doing this but it feels like it's the sensation of the shaft gliding in and out of my hole... I think the prostate somehow makes the nerves down there super sensitive? But in the moment it's definitely the point of penetration that feels so good.
I pound harder backwards against the cock, taking all of it inside me with each stroke. My ass is radiating now, this feeling of pleasure that keeps on building and I don't want it to stop. My breathing gets heavy, I start to moan as I bang as hard as I can onto the cock. I'm never erect at this point - sometimes semi, other times limp - but the head of my own cock is incredibly sensitive, sometimes just a touch can trigger an ejaculation - even when I'm not hard.
I buck as hard as I can and the pleasure just keeps building, until finally my muscles can't carry on and I collapse in a heap. There's no final "climax" as such, it just feels better and better until I physically can't keep going. It can take a little while to get the feeling started, and I know it's because I'm concentrating on keeping the dildo in the right place; I've achieved this same anal orgasm with a guy before and got there quicker.
I often wonder how far the pleasure would go if the penetration continued past the point where I can't make the movements myself - is there an actual climax that I've never hit? It'd need to be with a real guy, a real cock so he could keep pounding me without my tiredness being a factor - though on those occasions that I've gotten there with a guy the crescendo of my orgasm's always triggered his too and we've stopped. I've idly considered buying one of those "fucking machine" toys which would definitely fill that role but they're expensive, hard to conceal and frankly I think D would be completely turned off.
If anyone's reading this blog - have you ever anal orgasmed? Is there a peak that I've never hit?
Tuesday, 12 July 2016
GOT fantasy
Had an early night to bed with D on Monday after watching the penultimate Game Of Thrones for this series. After the pre-bed routine we climbed under the duvet naked and talked a few minutes about the day. Then we kissed.
I love kissing D. She's playful - sucking on my lip and my tongue as we snog. I love her so much.
I move my head down her neck to her breasts and begin licking her right nipple, then sucking gently. I pause briefly to lick my fingers wet, then reach down between her legs as I move to her other breast. She much prefers a clit rub to any penetration so I press firmly with three fingers while sucking at her boobs.
She whispers "Would you let Sansa suck my boobs?"
I love it when she brings up "non vanilla" sex antics! And she knows that a) I'd kill to watch her with another woman, and b) I love redheads. If you don't watch GoT, Sansa is a gorgeous young ginger woman. But surely you knew that, right? :)
I bring my head up briefly and say, "Oh yeah," before resuming. A few seconds later I pause again - "would you let her lick your pussy?"
"No! Well... maybe." She's expressed an interest in playing with another woman's boobs before but has always shied away from pussy play in either direction. "Shy" as-in hasn't ruled it out, suggesting that she probably wouldn't like to lick someone's but may be open to a woman going down on her. I watched her snog her best friend one night years ago so I know she's ok with kissing! I swear we would have had a threesome that night if a fourth person hadn't been present; there's aways been a mutual attraction between her friend and I (and I think between her and D). Several times she's gotten semi naked for us while drunk, including in our hotel room on her wedding night.
But I digress! With the image of Sansa's head buried between D's legs in my mind, she follows up with "Would you let Jon Snow suck your cock?"
I raise my head and remove my hand, sliding my upper body ontop of hers and my lower body between her legs. Her hand reaches down between her legs and guides me to her. My cock slides inside her and she makes a small sigh as it finds home. "Yeah..." I breath in her ear.
She's always said she'd rather watch a guy down on me than the other way around. Which would be nice, a blowjob is always welcome! But my preference would be the other way round - I'd want a cock to play with myself!
"Would you let him suck your boobs?"
"Mmm. And Sansa. At the same time."
I've got a rhythm going now, slowly pumping in and out of her, my body moved up a little so my shaft rubs her clit as it sides in.
"Would you let me suck hers?"
"Yeah..."
Silent sex for a few minutes.
"Can he fuck you?"
"Yeah..."
The next few minutes we concentrated on our pleasure in near silence. My internal fantasy concluded with his dripping cock extracting from her, his cum ozzing from her slit and into my mouth...
I came. She didn't but seemed to have enjoyed all the same. Sometimes in these situations we finish with a toy - if you've never tried a "Wevibe" I highly recommend it! It's U-shaped and fits half in half out of her, pressing on the clit. We're on our second one now; our first time with the first one we both lay perfectly still and both came in less that 60 seconds. Fucking amazing. Now we ocassionally use it while having regular sex, and always on the rare occasions that I give her anal (very rare despite the fact that she does enjoy it an always cums - it's back to her distaste for bum play).
No toys tonight though, we cuddled and went to sleep. I realised it was the first time in ages that she'd instigated 3/4some roleplay and wondered if I should bring up the sex club again.
I love kissing D. She's playful - sucking on my lip and my tongue as we snog. I love her so much.
I move my head down her neck to her breasts and begin licking her right nipple, then sucking gently. I pause briefly to lick my fingers wet, then reach down between her legs as I move to her other breast. She much prefers a clit rub to any penetration so I press firmly with three fingers while sucking at her boobs.
She whispers "Would you let Sansa suck my boobs?"
I love it when she brings up "non vanilla" sex antics! And she knows that a) I'd kill to watch her with another woman, and b) I love redheads. If you don't watch GoT, Sansa is a gorgeous young ginger woman. But surely you knew that, right? :)
I bring my head up briefly and say, "Oh yeah," before resuming. A few seconds later I pause again - "would you let her lick your pussy?"
"No! Well... maybe." She's expressed an interest in playing with another woman's boobs before but has always shied away from pussy play in either direction. "Shy" as-in hasn't ruled it out, suggesting that she probably wouldn't like to lick someone's but may be open to a woman going down on her. I watched her snog her best friend one night years ago so I know she's ok with kissing! I swear we would have had a threesome that night if a fourth person hadn't been present; there's aways been a mutual attraction between her friend and I (and I think between her and D). Several times she's gotten semi naked for us while drunk, including in our hotel room on her wedding night.
But I digress! With the image of Sansa's head buried between D's legs in my mind, she follows up with "Would you let Jon Snow suck your cock?"
I raise my head and remove my hand, sliding my upper body ontop of hers and my lower body between her legs. Her hand reaches down between her legs and guides me to her. My cock slides inside her and she makes a small sigh as it finds home. "Yeah..." I breath in her ear.
She's always said she'd rather watch a guy down on me than the other way around. Which would be nice, a blowjob is always welcome! But my preference would be the other way round - I'd want a cock to play with myself!
"Would you let him suck your boobs?"
"Mmm. And Sansa. At the same time."
I've got a rhythm going now, slowly pumping in and out of her, my body moved up a little so my shaft rubs her clit as it sides in.
"Would you let me suck hers?"
"Yeah..."
Silent sex for a few minutes.
"Can he fuck you?"
"Yeah..."
The next few minutes we concentrated on our pleasure in near silence. My internal fantasy concluded with his dripping cock extracting from her, his cum ozzing from her slit and into my mouth...
I came. She didn't but seemed to have enjoyed all the same. Sometimes in these situations we finish with a toy - if you've never tried a "Wevibe" I highly recommend it! It's U-shaped and fits half in half out of her, pressing on the clit. We're on our second one now; our first time with the first one we both lay perfectly still and both came in less that 60 seconds. Fucking amazing. Now we ocassionally use it while having regular sex, and always on the rare occasions that I give her anal (very rare despite the fact that she does enjoy it an always cums - it's back to her distaste for bum play).
No toys tonight though, we cuddled and went to sleep. I realised it was the first time in ages that she'd instigated 3/4some roleplay and wondered if I should bring up the sex club again.
Where to start and why?
Ok, I'm a 40 yo man. I'm married and I've known I was bi since.... well I guess that's complicated! There was a strong homophobic vibe in my house when I was a kid, so I think I probably started having feelings for the male body before my teens. Though it was when I was mid - teens that I really realised.
I was looking at porn, getting very horny and fantasising. This beautiful blonde was with this long haired stud - being taken from all angles, sucking his cock etc. My fantasies put me in the scene, and I quickly realised that I was hornier imagining I was *her* rather than him. The homophobia I'd grown up with made me feel so guilty afterwards - but I kept going back to it, fantasising over and again that I was being fucked by the guy in the porn I was viewing.
Years went by, and I had school girlfriends and all - tried to hide or dismiss this side of myself. And then at uni, a friend had a friend from his hometown to stay. His friend was gay and I was intrigued; one afternoon we found ourselves alone in my uni friend's house and... well he almost walked in on us 69'ing!
For a short time it felt like an awakening - I joined the uni LGBT society for a few months but it never led to any further physical action. Everyone was gay or lesbian, I felt out of place there. I had a gf at the time too - how could I fit in? The feeling began to fade and my bi-ness went back to being something hidden.
I got married, had a kid, and nearly a decade passed. Then I found out my wife had been cheating and it nearly killed me. I wanted to make it work more than anything but after a few weeks I realised it was over.
That very same night I registered on gaydar.co.uk, got chatting and found myself in a stranger's flat by midnight. We flirted. I'd never flirted with a guy properly before unless you count my encounter with the friend's friend, and that had just felt clumsy. Flirting felt good. And it led to kissing, taking a shower together and the second 69 of my life. The night ended with me in his bed and in him too. That was the real awakening.
The following year was a bit of a blur thanks to booze and substances. Despite all the stories about drugs ruining lives I actually had an amazing year and still kept my job and social life. But respectable <my job> and father by day, evenings regularly involved going online, picking a guy and having some good clean-but-dirty sex at my place or theirs. At the same time I was on a dating site and going out with women too, but more traditional than what I was doing with guys.
One night after a long road trip I got home and logged on, found myself invited to a gay couple's house for the evening. My first ever threesome was amazing fun - I was very drunk by the end and nearly had bareback sex (*nearly*, I wasn't that drunk!). I highly recommend the middle position of a spit roast :)
But it got me thinking about other possibilities, and after around a month of being registered with another site, I was meeting up with another couple: well call them Carl and Simone.
Wow. Sex with an MF couple was amazing, all the more so when they were in a long standing relationship and I was their new toy! Though making her the centre of attention was fun too, tag-teaming a woman with her husband is such a turn on, culminating in him licking my cum from her tits (safe sex!) and me slurping up his from inside her. God it was horny!
I only met up with them a few times, but was already fantasising about moving in with them and being their toy forever. And then in met D.
The dating site, we chatted for months and then finally met up. I thought she was awesome and immediately stopped playing elsewhere. That was 10 years ago; we've been married for the last few and have a child now. I told her very early on about my bisexuality and discovered that she was a little turned on by gay sex. Not to the extent that we watch gay porn together or anything (she finds porn a bit tacky), but we do like watching things like men's diving together and comparing notes :)
We'd talked over the years about maybe having a threesome together but had never done anything about it. That is until a couple of years ago when we signed up to a swingers website. She was turned off by the constant "wanna fuck?" emails and cock pictures and said she'd rather go to some club or something, meet real people.
After a lot of prevarication we went to a club just over a year ago. It was pretty surreal, in some ways it was like some kind of night club but with people having sex in various places, some surrounded by a crowd of voyeurs. D was very unsure about the whole thing right upto and including our arrival.
A couple of bottles of wine and a few hours later she'd relaxed. A few hours after that we found ourselves shut in a room with a large bed - two almost naked women were on one side touching each other while we were on the other with a tall black guy called Simon.
We'd been talking before the event, D really liked the idea of having both nipples sucked simultaneously. So we'd gone into the room with that idea in mind and very quickly she was reclined on the bed with her top pulled down, Simon and I either side of her. I began to rub between her legs while we both sucked at her, getting incredibly horny. I wriggled her out of her trousers while he continued and then returned to sucking her nipple, but this time fingering her proper.
Her soft moans seemed to indicate enjoyment, and while I could see from the corner of my eye that he was still sucking her too, I felt his hand brush alongside mine as he stroked her thigh. I was so horny at this point... Without a second thought I slid my hand across, held the back of his and slid it across to replace mine. I watched as his stroking became a hard and rapid deep fingering, heard her moans become deep and heavy and then began to kiss her, before sitting back and watching.
I watched. Such a beautiful contrast - he was African-black and she is very pale - as his hands worked at her pussy. She sat up a little to kiss me, breathing heavily in my face. I helped her recline back as we snogged then backed away again. I love D hugely, but felt no jealously at what was happening. Infact right at that moment if she'd said she wanted to fuck him I would have eagerly said yes.
Her breath was so heavy I convinced myself she was cumming (though she later told me she hadn't). I leaned towards her again and said, "You can kiss him if you like."
She didn't hesitate, sitting up again and leaning towards him immediately. I watched them snogging and it made my erection throb in my pants. Sadly he wasn't bi (from earlier conversation) so I couldn't join in, but the view was amazing!
Finally he moved to go down on her and this broke her spell - she told him not to and that was the end of the encounter. We chatted a while then went our seperate ways. It was nearly 3am so we started trying to arrange a taxi, finally getting a lift to the hotel with another couple (who turned out to be from our home town).
We were so horny when we returned to the room. Her shyness and uncertainty had vanished; "We should have taken photos before we set off!" She said as I helped her out of the revealing basque she was wearing. "You'd never have let me, you were shaking!" And it was the truth.
But now... We had sex. We talked about the events of the evening, looked him up on our swingers site, then sex again before falling asleep. I woke quite early still feeling the huge horn but she was still fast sleep, so I had a wank while fantasising about his huge cock switching between D's pussy and my mouth. I dozed off again post-orgasm and we both finally woke around 10.
We started talking about the night before and within minutes I was hard and inside her again. We whispered to each other about how much we'd enjoyed it while we fucked.
For weeks after we were super-horny - our typical couple-of-times-a-week became at least once a day. We exchanged messages with him in the vein hope that he might be bi but alas not. I had a brief couple of days where I freaked out about the whole thing but it soon settled down - she loved me and nothing was going to change that. She'd said that she'd done her share of freaking out before we went, and looking back I could see that really had been the case.
But eventually things returned to normal - we still sometimes talked about that night while in bed together but otherwise the super-horn subsided. That was a year ago, and since then we've talking about going to another club but have done nothing about it yet. "I want to lose weight," being the main reason. D isn't skinny but certainly isn't what I'd class as fat, but still has issues with her appearance. I think she's gorgeous and I know that losing a stone won't make the slightest difference to others if we go to a club... but whatever makes her comfortable is the rule.
Infact it's the overall rule for any of our activities. I'd be happy for her to go as far as she likes with either gender, and would stop myself at any point that made her feel uncomfortable - we've established that she wouldn't want to see me with another woman. In truth, and while I'm not actually interested in other women right now, I'm hoping that might change one day... Mostly because of my number-one fantasy.
We get to know another couple and there's attraction all-round; MM, MF and FF. We become really good friends and they're a lot like us in every way. After a while we decide to play together unprotected (both us guys vasectomised and we agree not to see others) and when we meet up it's for a posh meal followed by a proper foursome. Everyone has sex together with no protection worries and every possible combination can happen. If D was busy being plowed by him I could be alongside them plowing her... we could swap around without thinking about condoms, and (ultimate fantasy) cum in each other's wives before finally lapping each other's cum from our own partner. And us guys could cum inside each other, which is a joint-first-place ultimate fantasy for me too.
Maybe that'll never happen. But who knows?
For now, I'm hoping we can try another club this summer. There's a classier looking place a little further away that runs a bi night one Friday per month which sounds perfect, and I'm hoping that I might finally get the MM experience that I've been craving.
So - why am I blogging this? It's mostly so I've got "someone to talk to" about all of this. I don't think I'd be comfortable talking like this with my friends, and while I'm almost always completely honest with C there's certain things (like the idea of me with another woman) that at least for now are off the table.
So wether this page gets read by anyone or not, I'll keep writing - at least when there's something new to tell!
I was looking at porn, getting very horny and fantasising. This beautiful blonde was with this long haired stud - being taken from all angles, sucking his cock etc. My fantasies put me in the scene, and I quickly realised that I was hornier imagining I was *her* rather than him. The homophobia I'd grown up with made me feel so guilty afterwards - but I kept going back to it, fantasising over and again that I was being fucked by the guy in the porn I was viewing.
Years went by, and I had school girlfriends and all - tried to hide or dismiss this side of myself. And then at uni, a friend had a friend from his hometown to stay. His friend was gay and I was intrigued; one afternoon we found ourselves alone in my uni friend's house and... well he almost walked in on us 69'ing!
For a short time it felt like an awakening - I joined the uni LGBT society for a few months but it never led to any further physical action. Everyone was gay or lesbian, I felt out of place there. I had a gf at the time too - how could I fit in? The feeling began to fade and my bi-ness went back to being something hidden.
I got married, had a kid, and nearly a decade passed. Then I found out my wife had been cheating and it nearly killed me. I wanted to make it work more than anything but after a few weeks I realised it was over.
That very same night I registered on gaydar.co.uk, got chatting and found myself in a stranger's flat by midnight. We flirted. I'd never flirted with a guy properly before unless you count my encounter with the friend's friend, and that had just felt clumsy. Flirting felt good. And it led to kissing, taking a shower together and the second 69 of my life. The night ended with me in his bed and in him too. That was the real awakening.
The following year was a bit of a blur thanks to booze and substances. Despite all the stories about drugs ruining lives I actually had an amazing year and still kept my job and social life. But respectable <my job> and father by day, evenings regularly involved going online, picking a guy and having some good clean-but-dirty sex at my place or theirs. At the same time I was on a dating site and going out with women too, but more traditional than what I was doing with guys.
One night after a long road trip I got home and logged on, found myself invited to a gay couple's house for the evening. My first ever threesome was amazing fun - I was very drunk by the end and nearly had bareback sex (*nearly*, I wasn't that drunk!). I highly recommend the middle position of a spit roast :)
But it got me thinking about other possibilities, and after around a month of being registered with another site, I was meeting up with another couple: well call them Carl and Simone.
Wow. Sex with an MF couple was amazing, all the more so when they were in a long standing relationship and I was their new toy! Though making her the centre of attention was fun too, tag-teaming a woman with her husband is such a turn on, culminating in him licking my cum from her tits (safe sex!) and me slurping up his from inside her. God it was horny!
I only met up with them a few times, but was already fantasising about moving in with them and being their toy forever. And then in met D.
The dating site, we chatted for months and then finally met up. I thought she was awesome and immediately stopped playing elsewhere. That was 10 years ago; we've been married for the last few and have a child now. I told her very early on about my bisexuality and discovered that she was a little turned on by gay sex. Not to the extent that we watch gay porn together or anything (she finds porn a bit tacky), but we do like watching things like men's diving together and comparing notes :)
We'd talked over the years about maybe having a threesome together but had never done anything about it. That is until a couple of years ago when we signed up to a swingers website. She was turned off by the constant "wanna fuck?" emails and cock pictures and said she'd rather go to some club or something, meet real people.
After a lot of prevarication we went to a club just over a year ago. It was pretty surreal, in some ways it was like some kind of night club but with people having sex in various places, some surrounded by a crowd of voyeurs. D was very unsure about the whole thing right upto and including our arrival.
A couple of bottles of wine and a few hours later she'd relaxed. A few hours after that we found ourselves shut in a room with a large bed - two almost naked women were on one side touching each other while we were on the other with a tall black guy called Simon.
We'd been talking before the event, D really liked the idea of having both nipples sucked simultaneously. So we'd gone into the room with that idea in mind and very quickly she was reclined on the bed with her top pulled down, Simon and I either side of her. I began to rub between her legs while we both sucked at her, getting incredibly horny. I wriggled her out of her trousers while he continued and then returned to sucking her nipple, but this time fingering her proper.
Her soft moans seemed to indicate enjoyment, and while I could see from the corner of my eye that he was still sucking her too, I felt his hand brush alongside mine as he stroked her thigh. I was so horny at this point... Without a second thought I slid my hand across, held the back of his and slid it across to replace mine. I watched as his stroking became a hard and rapid deep fingering, heard her moans become deep and heavy and then began to kiss her, before sitting back and watching.
I watched. Such a beautiful contrast - he was African-black and she is very pale - as his hands worked at her pussy. She sat up a little to kiss me, breathing heavily in my face. I helped her recline back as we snogged then backed away again. I love D hugely, but felt no jealously at what was happening. Infact right at that moment if she'd said she wanted to fuck him I would have eagerly said yes.
Her breath was so heavy I convinced myself she was cumming (though she later told me she hadn't). I leaned towards her again and said, "You can kiss him if you like."
She didn't hesitate, sitting up again and leaning towards him immediately. I watched them snogging and it made my erection throb in my pants. Sadly he wasn't bi (from earlier conversation) so I couldn't join in, but the view was amazing!
Finally he moved to go down on her and this broke her spell - she told him not to and that was the end of the encounter. We chatted a while then went our seperate ways. It was nearly 3am so we started trying to arrange a taxi, finally getting a lift to the hotel with another couple (who turned out to be from our home town).
We were so horny when we returned to the room. Her shyness and uncertainty had vanished; "We should have taken photos before we set off!" She said as I helped her out of the revealing basque she was wearing. "You'd never have let me, you were shaking!" And it was the truth.
But now... We had sex. We talked about the events of the evening, looked him up on our swingers site, then sex again before falling asleep. I woke quite early still feeling the huge horn but she was still fast sleep, so I had a wank while fantasising about his huge cock switching between D's pussy and my mouth. I dozed off again post-orgasm and we both finally woke around 10.
We started talking about the night before and within minutes I was hard and inside her again. We whispered to each other about how much we'd enjoyed it while we fucked.
For weeks after we were super-horny - our typical couple-of-times-a-week became at least once a day. We exchanged messages with him in the vein hope that he might be bi but alas not. I had a brief couple of days where I freaked out about the whole thing but it soon settled down - she loved me and nothing was going to change that. She'd said that she'd done her share of freaking out before we went, and looking back I could see that really had been the case.
But eventually things returned to normal - we still sometimes talked about that night while in bed together but otherwise the super-horn subsided. That was a year ago, and since then we've talking about going to another club but have done nothing about it yet. "I want to lose weight," being the main reason. D isn't skinny but certainly isn't what I'd class as fat, but still has issues with her appearance. I think she's gorgeous and I know that losing a stone won't make the slightest difference to others if we go to a club... but whatever makes her comfortable is the rule.
Infact it's the overall rule for any of our activities. I'd be happy for her to go as far as she likes with either gender, and would stop myself at any point that made her feel uncomfortable - we've established that she wouldn't want to see me with another woman. In truth, and while I'm not actually interested in other women right now, I'm hoping that might change one day... Mostly because of my number-one fantasy.
We get to know another couple and there's attraction all-round; MM, MF and FF. We become really good friends and they're a lot like us in every way. After a while we decide to play together unprotected (both us guys vasectomised and we agree not to see others) and when we meet up it's for a posh meal followed by a proper foursome. Everyone has sex together with no protection worries and every possible combination can happen. If D was busy being plowed by him I could be alongside them plowing her... we could swap around without thinking about condoms, and (ultimate fantasy) cum in each other's wives before finally lapping each other's cum from our own partner. And us guys could cum inside each other, which is a joint-first-place ultimate fantasy for me too.
Maybe that'll never happen. But who knows?
For now, I'm hoping we can try another club this summer. There's a classier looking place a little further away that runs a bi night one Friday per month which sounds perfect, and I'm hoping that I might finally get the MM experience that I've been craving.
So - why am I blogging this? It's mostly so I've got "someone to talk to" about all of this. I don't think I'd be comfortable talking like this with my friends, and while I'm almost always completely honest with C there's certain things (like the idea of me with another woman) that at least for now are off the table.
So wether this page gets read by anyone or not, I'll keep writing - at least when there's something new to tell!
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