Lacey bra top and tiny micro skirt arrived in the post! Haven't had chance to try them on yet, had to go to work.
I've got two nights to myself home alone from tonight. I usually like to spend the time dressing up on these rare nights to myself as I've mentioned before... usually ending with a ride on my favourite toy.
The temptation is always there to go online and find a real cock to play with.....but I'd never do that to D. We've discussed my bi-ness and she's willing for me to have sex with a guy, but only with her watching - and only on her timescale. Which admittedly has been a couple of years now, but I'm happy to wait til the right time... to "do it right".
I have, though, occasionally gone onto chat sites and cyber-sexed with a guy. Not for a long time though and never while dressed up. Right now I'm getting really turned on by the idea of dressing right up with some basic makeup too and finding a guy to cam with. I'm thinking it'll probably happen this tonight, but my one worry is that I'll end up so drunk and horny that I'll want to meet up with him afterwards!
I might take some pics to post here if I'm feeling brave!
Wednesday, 31 August 2016
Tuesday, 30 August 2016
My sexual bucket list
With half an hour to spare while at work, in present my bucket list! In no particular order:
Bareback anal - to completion
I've received anal from a guy a few times, always with a condom and mostly withdrawn before the end so they could cum on me. Which is actually a lovely feeling, but I can't help craving the feel of him shooting inside me and being all sticky afterwards! To be honest, any and all of the fantasies on this page would be sans-condom, though I can't imagine I'd ever be that reckless.
Sharing D's pussy with another cock
Another bareback fantasy. Both cocks inside her at the same time, he cums before me and I can feel his slick cum lubricating us both before I cum too, ending with me going down on her and lapping up our three way combined juices.
Cross dressing and being seduced
Going to a sex club in full drag. A guy flirts with me all night, both referring to me as a girl only. Buys me drinks, chats me up and then evening ends with me being fucked doggy style; still fully clothed in my skirt, stockings etc with just the skirt hitched up and knickers around my ankles.
Gangbanged
A room full of guys - 10-15 of them - taking turns to fuck my little ass. All cumming inside me, each ejaculation lubing me further until eventually I don't even feel them sliding in and just cum over and over with my special anal orgasms going off as they probe my P spot. Finally my bum is awash with spunk and I spend the next week being reminded of what happened every time I walk!
Watching D have sex with another guy
"Cuckold" is a funny word and seems to have all sorts of connotations in the "sex scene". I don't want to be humiliated or derided, "cheated on" or anything. But the idea of watching a guy on top of D, his cock pumping into her while they snog and her cumming loudly... and ideally him then repeating the act with me while she watched! A massive turn on.
Waking up tomorrow as a woman
A bit of an odd one - I don't want a sex change or anything, I'm not trans (though do like to cross dress). But if I were to wake up one morning and through some bizarre magic find that I had breasts and pussy, a feminine body and face... It goes without saying I'd spend several days being the biggest slut on earth! Both with men and women ;)
Bareback anal - to completion
I've received anal from a guy a few times, always with a condom and mostly withdrawn before the end so they could cum on me. Which is actually a lovely feeling, but I can't help craving the feel of him shooting inside me and being all sticky afterwards! To be honest, any and all of the fantasies on this page would be sans-condom, though I can't imagine I'd ever be that reckless.
Sharing D's pussy with another cock
Another bareback fantasy. Both cocks inside her at the same time, he cums before me and I can feel his slick cum lubricating us both before I cum too, ending with me going down on her and lapping up our three way combined juices.
Cross dressing and being seduced
Going to a sex club in full drag. A guy flirts with me all night, both referring to me as a girl only. Buys me drinks, chats me up and then evening ends with me being fucked doggy style; still fully clothed in my skirt, stockings etc with just the skirt hitched up and knickers around my ankles.
Gangbanged
A room full of guys - 10-15 of them - taking turns to fuck my little ass. All cumming inside me, each ejaculation lubing me further until eventually I don't even feel them sliding in and just cum over and over with my special anal orgasms going off as they probe my P spot. Finally my bum is awash with spunk and I spend the next week being reminded of what happened every time I walk!
Watching D have sex with another guy
"Cuckold" is a funny word and seems to have all sorts of connotations in the "sex scene". I don't want to be humiliated or derided, "cheated on" or anything. But the idea of watching a guy on top of D, his cock pumping into her while they snog and her cumming loudly... and ideally him then repeating the act with me while she watched! A massive turn on.
Waking up tomorrow as a woman
A bit of an odd one - I don't want a sex change or anything, I'm not trans (though do like to cross dress). But if I were to wake up one morning and through some bizarre magic find that I had breasts and pussy, a feminine body and face... It goes without saying I'd spend several days being the biggest slut on earth! Both with men and women ;)
Thursday, 25 August 2016
Crossdress Thursdays
I have the house to myself next week, Thursday morning til Friday afternoon. While D knows that I like to crossdress and has even bought me some clothes in the past, it doesn't do anything for her so it's become something I tend to do solo (and has become a bit of a private joke between us when she's away).
So I've just ordered some new clothes to add to the collection (a bra top and tiny microskirt) ready for next week. I think the skirt'll look great with my favourite tall-size holdup stockings... I may even post some pictures next week if I'm feeling brave ;)
So I've just ordered some new clothes to add to the collection (a bra top and tiny microskirt) ready for next week. I think the skirt'll look great with my favourite tall-size holdup stockings... I may even post some pictures next week if I'm feeling brave ;)
Sunday, 21 August 2016
Pegging again
So the highlight of the Olympics for D and I is always the men's diving. We watch and compare notes on the athletic bodies on display, pick our favourite and then have sex afterwards fantasising about our chosen one and what he's doing to us both.
Unfortunately this year Tom Daley - who's been our go-to fantasy figure in general for the last few years - didn't make the final. Not to worry, I liked the French guy (D said he looked too young) while she favoured the German (who did have a lovely physique).
Around midnight, after a few drinks, a bath for us both and an anal-douche for me we were in the bedroom and D was pulling up her strap-on knickers containing our Fetish Fantasy Elite.
I do love to go-down on a strap-on before getting started but D doesn't like it ("it's been in your bum!" despite it being sterilised) so we got straight to it. Last time, the first time we'd used this toy, I straddled her and ultimately had my holy grail of anal sex - the anal orgasm. I don't know if it was the vibration (I never normally like buzzing toys inside me all that much) or just the shape of the toy, but my rear felt like it was glowing. Such a beautiful feeling and something I'd only ever experienced solo and with a real cock until that point.
And last night... well. We started out in the same position, I straddled her with knees either side and slowly slid myself down the length of the dildo. She bent her knees a little so she could push her pelvis up at me, she started the toy buzzing and we got into a rhythm as I rose and fell into her lap.
It felt good. I was gripping her shoulders for stability as my movements become harder and faster, my breathing became deeper and faster, and she was looking up at me with that look on her face - a mix of amusement at what we were doing and genuine pleasure from seeing the pleasure on my face.
The buzzing felt very intense but good, and was starting to work it's magic on D too; eyes closed now and head back, her own breath becoming heavy. I moved backwards so I was arching my back, my hands now pressing down onto the bed near her feet, her slightly bent knees either side of me. I was able to slide backwards a little then push forwards and impale myself on the toy, grinding my ass against her. I moved from kneeling, my feet now pressing onto the bed so I was pretty much sat in her lap.
"Mmm yeah, right there," D murmured, so I concentrated on making small movements back and forth which seemed to be working for her. Sure enough she started moaning softly at first and then louder as her orgasm started. I pressed hard against her and the toy was deep inside me. And then...
Damn, I was going to cum! Not a bum-gasm but from my cock. Don't get me wrong, it felt great but it'd signify the end of the session for me at least. My cock was rigid, harder than it'd been the whole evening and I felt the buzz of the toy running from inside me to it's tip. I was on the verge, that split second before the ejaculation that feels so intense. I moaned, "fuck yeah fuck fuck fuck" and kept grinding against her as her moans peaked and she came too. God this orgasm was lasting forever for me! Any second now I'd cum all over her belly and tits without so much as touching myself. I moaned and moaned, it felt like my cock was about to explode....
And after something like 2 minutes of this I couldn't take any more and pulled back and away from her, the dildo sliding out of me and the "orgasm" stopping.
I've never felt anything like it before in my life! The toy must have hit my prostate in just the right way, a way I've never felt before. It genuinely felt like I was half a second away from shooting my load and it lasted for minutes. Fuck I love that toy!
We tried spooning after that - I love that position with a real cock - but eventually stopped and discarded the toy. We rubbed each other while we lay alongside each other kissing and I finally came, one of the most powerful ejaculation I've had in a long time (apparently I shot from waist height and it got in her hair!)
So no anal orgasm last night, but some new kind of orgasm I'd not even known existed! Next time I'll be hoping to have both ;)
Unfortunately this year Tom Daley - who's been our go-to fantasy figure in general for the last few years - didn't make the final. Not to worry, I liked the French guy (D said he looked too young) while she favoured the German (who did have a lovely physique).
Around midnight, after a few drinks, a bath for us both and an anal-douche for me we were in the bedroom and D was pulling up her strap-on knickers containing our Fetish Fantasy Elite.
I do love to go-down on a strap-on before getting started but D doesn't like it ("it's been in your bum!" despite it being sterilised) so we got straight to it. Last time, the first time we'd used this toy, I straddled her and ultimately had my holy grail of anal sex - the anal orgasm. I don't know if it was the vibration (I never normally like buzzing toys inside me all that much) or just the shape of the toy, but my rear felt like it was glowing. Such a beautiful feeling and something I'd only ever experienced solo and with a real cock until that point.
And last night... well. We started out in the same position, I straddled her with knees either side and slowly slid myself down the length of the dildo. She bent her knees a little so she could push her pelvis up at me, she started the toy buzzing and we got into a rhythm as I rose and fell into her lap.
It felt good. I was gripping her shoulders for stability as my movements become harder and faster, my breathing became deeper and faster, and she was looking up at me with that look on her face - a mix of amusement at what we were doing and genuine pleasure from seeing the pleasure on my face.
The buzzing felt very intense but good, and was starting to work it's magic on D too; eyes closed now and head back, her own breath becoming heavy. I moved backwards so I was arching my back, my hands now pressing down onto the bed near her feet, her slightly bent knees either side of me. I was able to slide backwards a little then push forwards and impale myself on the toy, grinding my ass against her. I moved from kneeling, my feet now pressing onto the bed so I was pretty much sat in her lap.
"Mmm yeah, right there," D murmured, so I concentrated on making small movements back and forth which seemed to be working for her. Sure enough she started moaning softly at first and then louder as her orgasm started. I pressed hard against her and the toy was deep inside me. And then...
Damn, I was going to cum! Not a bum-gasm but from my cock. Don't get me wrong, it felt great but it'd signify the end of the session for me at least. My cock was rigid, harder than it'd been the whole evening and I felt the buzz of the toy running from inside me to it's tip. I was on the verge, that split second before the ejaculation that feels so intense. I moaned, "fuck yeah fuck fuck fuck" and kept grinding against her as her moans peaked and she came too. God this orgasm was lasting forever for me! Any second now I'd cum all over her belly and tits without so much as touching myself. I moaned and moaned, it felt like my cock was about to explode....
And after something like 2 minutes of this I couldn't take any more and pulled back and away from her, the dildo sliding out of me and the "orgasm" stopping.
I've never felt anything like it before in my life! The toy must have hit my prostate in just the right way, a way I've never felt before. It genuinely felt like I was half a second away from shooting my load and it lasted for minutes. Fuck I love that toy!
We tried spooning after that - I love that position with a real cock - but eventually stopped and discarded the toy. We rubbed each other while we lay alongside each other kissing and I finally came, one of the most powerful ejaculation I've had in a long time (apparently I shot from waist height and it got in her hair!)
So no anal orgasm last night, but some new kind of orgasm I'd not even known existed! Next time I'll be hoping to have both ;)
Monday, 8 August 2016
Nearly 10 years
Next month marks the 10 year anniversary of the last time I had gay sex.
Attitudes towards bi folk can be strange. A 'celebrity' was kicked out of the UK Big Brother this weekend after claiming that bisexuals are responsible for the pandemic of HIV (clearly he'd never heard of intravenous drug use). Some people assume that being bi means you're promiscuous, that you cheat on your partner... you're married and bi? Oh you must be cheating on your wife then.
While that'll be true for some people, as much as it is for straight and gay people, that's definitely not me. Yeah I had a promiscuous phase - the year between splitting with my ex and meeting my wife I had a huge amount of casual sex with guys and girls. But aproaching the 10 year anniversary of meeting D also means 10 years since my last MM contact.
...which was a threesome with a married couple I'd met on a swingers site. They were both nice, friendly, intelligent. I'd met them twice in total and both times had great sex with them both. As an ice breaker for our first meeting we'd all agreed on no underwear, so after 10 minutes of idle chat I'd asked Carl, "so did you keep to the agreement?" and he stood from my sofa and dropped his trousers before sitting back down. I immediately knelt in front of him and went down on his cock. He was big!
We had some good fun - spit roasting a woman with her husband is pretty hot... sharing a double dildo with him while she sits on your face was definitely the highlight of the first night though!
Our second and final meet up was in September 2006. I'd been talking to D on an online dating site for a couple of months and we went on our first date the week after my last encounter with Carl and Simone. Since then it's been just me and D. Well unless you count the threesome we had with another guy at the swingers club last year - but since there was no contact between me and him I think it only counts as her having sex (and even then, only if you count fingering as sex!).
I've had my moments - snogged two women on nights out in the last decade (D knows about both) and when D's been away overnight and I've found myself home alone I've been half-tempted to find a guy online to fuck me.
Half tempted - I have never and could never do it, cheating just isn't me. I invariably end up spending the end of the night riding a dildo fantasising it's real.
But then the discussions I've had with D in recent years about swinging... do I actually fit the bi stereotype after all? I love my wife and our life together but sometimes I crave cock. In my mouth, inside me... I guess we always want what we don't currently have: 10 years ago I was having all the gay sex I wanted but chose to go for a steady gf.
I don't regret it at all, and yet I still wonder where I'd be now if we hadn't met. A different girl? Or would it have been a guy? Maybe I'd have still been single now, shagging whoever took my fancy.
D's tried to satisfy my cravings over the years. To be clear it's not so much sex with men per se that I want, it's what's between their legs. if you can infact draw that distinction? I rarely find men attractive, at least in the way I do women. I can walk down the street on any given day and see several women who I find attractive, whereas it may be one guy in a month!
Though naked is a different matter. Show me a man and a woman and I'd usually have a much bigger chance of finding her attractive than him. Show me the same two people naked and I'm going to be focusing on his body more than hers. Maybe the "what I don't currently have" thing? I don't know.
Watching porn I'll almost always fantasise that I'm her rather than him - is that because I'm a bit femme or because I want gay sex? Again I don't know. I do know that I have more than little transexual in me.
I did consider at one point that I might not be bi at all - very little attraction to men could actually be none at all and I'm just willing to "put up with" them for their cocks. Some straight guys like receiving anal with toys etc. Is that me? I decided not, as I love giving blow jobs too, and surely someone who's genuinely 100% straight simply could never bring themselves to have sex with another man regardless of what they get out of it?
The truth is that it's been so long... its hard to know exactly how I feel. Sure I wank over gay porn, though always focused on the point of penetration rather than the rest of their manly bodies. Is it my femme side after all? Is it just because I love being penetrated as if I were a girl?
It's been so long since I was with a guy it sometimes feels like I love the idea of it and can barely remember how the act feels. As I said, D's tried to satisfy my need for penetration; we've played with strap ons over the years but never with much success until very recently - finally we have a toy that works for her and on our very first use managed to give me a bum orgasm! I've had anal O's with guys before but never had one from D pegging me until last month.
Maybe now she can give me the one thing I've only been able to get from a real cock (or solo with my toys) my urge for cock will subside. Though with all our discussions of swinging I've found that I'm really turned on by the idea of watching her get fucked by someone else, seeing her cum-face when it's someone else inside her... and if it's someone we can share?
Sorry for the rambling post!
Do I just sound confused and crazy?
Attitudes towards bi folk can be strange. A 'celebrity' was kicked out of the UK Big Brother this weekend after claiming that bisexuals are responsible for the pandemic of HIV (clearly he'd never heard of intravenous drug use). Some people assume that being bi means you're promiscuous, that you cheat on your partner... you're married and bi? Oh you must be cheating on your wife then.
While that'll be true for some people, as much as it is for straight and gay people, that's definitely not me. Yeah I had a promiscuous phase - the year between splitting with my ex and meeting my wife I had a huge amount of casual sex with guys and girls. But aproaching the 10 year anniversary of meeting D also means 10 years since my last MM contact.
...which was a threesome with a married couple I'd met on a swingers site. They were both nice, friendly, intelligent. I'd met them twice in total and both times had great sex with them both. As an ice breaker for our first meeting we'd all agreed on no underwear, so after 10 minutes of idle chat I'd asked Carl, "so did you keep to the agreement?" and he stood from my sofa and dropped his trousers before sitting back down. I immediately knelt in front of him and went down on his cock. He was big!
We had some good fun - spit roasting a woman with her husband is pretty hot... sharing a double dildo with him while she sits on your face was definitely the highlight of the first night though!
Our second and final meet up was in September 2006. I'd been talking to D on an online dating site for a couple of months and we went on our first date the week after my last encounter with Carl and Simone. Since then it's been just me and D. Well unless you count the threesome we had with another guy at the swingers club last year - but since there was no contact between me and him I think it only counts as her having sex (and even then, only if you count fingering as sex!).
I've had my moments - snogged two women on nights out in the last decade (D knows about both) and when D's been away overnight and I've found myself home alone I've been half-tempted to find a guy online to fuck me.
Half tempted - I have never and could never do it, cheating just isn't me. I invariably end up spending the end of the night riding a dildo fantasising it's real.
But then the discussions I've had with D in recent years about swinging... do I actually fit the bi stereotype after all? I love my wife and our life together but sometimes I crave cock. In my mouth, inside me... I guess we always want what we don't currently have: 10 years ago I was having all the gay sex I wanted but chose to go for a steady gf.
I don't regret it at all, and yet I still wonder where I'd be now if we hadn't met. A different girl? Or would it have been a guy? Maybe I'd have still been single now, shagging whoever took my fancy.
D's tried to satisfy my cravings over the years. To be clear it's not so much sex with men per se that I want, it's what's between their legs. if you can infact draw that distinction? I rarely find men attractive, at least in the way I do women. I can walk down the street on any given day and see several women who I find attractive, whereas it may be one guy in a month!
Though naked is a different matter. Show me a man and a woman and I'd usually have a much bigger chance of finding her attractive than him. Show me the same two people naked and I'm going to be focusing on his body more than hers. Maybe the "what I don't currently have" thing? I don't know.
Watching porn I'll almost always fantasise that I'm her rather than him - is that because I'm a bit femme or because I want gay sex? Again I don't know. I do know that I have more than little transexual in me.
I did consider at one point that I might not be bi at all - very little attraction to men could actually be none at all and I'm just willing to "put up with" them for their cocks. Some straight guys like receiving anal with toys etc. Is that me? I decided not, as I love giving blow jobs too, and surely someone who's genuinely 100% straight simply could never bring themselves to have sex with another man regardless of what they get out of it?
The truth is that it's been so long... its hard to know exactly how I feel. Sure I wank over gay porn, though always focused on the point of penetration rather than the rest of their manly bodies. Is it my femme side after all? Is it just because I love being penetrated as if I were a girl?
It's been so long since I was with a guy it sometimes feels like I love the idea of it and can barely remember how the act feels. As I said, D's tried to satisfy my need for penetration; we've played with strap ons over the years but never with much success until very recently - finally we have a toy that works for her and on our very first use managed to give me a bum orgasm! I've had anal O's with guys before but never had one from D pegging me until last month.
Maybe now she can give me the one thing I've only been able to get from a real cock (or solo with my toys) my urge for cock will subside. Though with all our discussions of swinging I've found that I'm really turned on by the idea of watching her get fucked by someone else, seeing her cum-face when it's someone else inside her... and if it's someone we can share?
Sorry for the rambling post!
Do I just sound confused and crazy?
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